IT jusT a wOrd of The moNth.....

i'm having my test today. its kind of good for me as it does push me to read and study.....dont know what to say now...emptY..
But i wanna write


Hah
DO i too quite in class??
maybe yes and maybe not
actually Yes!!!!!!
i dont know what to talk actually as they ll just like to talk something not interest me..and in my point of view, its better to stay silent..or maybe just hear what they are talking so long and fun about ;-)
DO i am not easy going?
Yes for certain things and place
of course i wont do something that will make myself shame
or something that put my pride down
or something that are really wrong for humans to do that
ALL in all just be with me, and u will know who i am...heheh

Person always regards me as a weak!!!!
i hate this kind of perception,
if i m wea, what me u all stronger than me?
by looking down on me?
URGH.... forget that
i know who i am...
O.K,,,,, thats allllllllllllllllllll

ALHAMDULILLAH AS I'M STILL BREATH UNTIL NOW..=)

What should I said? Do? Act?...

Like an usual day, I started my morning with prayers and hopes. Lot of hopes that are ‘planted’ in my heart every morning. It is only me to ascertain that its gonna be flowers, fruit or just a tree….. and the worst, the seeds that never grew.
Today I had finish my lb for one subject of this semester. Its kind of regret as I still cannot catch up what I am looking for. I wanna ask but do not know what to ask.
I wanna do the procedure but my level of confidence is very low inside myself. Today, I allow my “seed” to become tree. I tried to say and do what I want. Thanks to my groups to allow and believe in me.=D.
Yesterday, I got the presentation. I had choose topic based plant but out of sudden I change my topic at the night before. Its kind of “make my own self shame “ as I present what I am not interested in….its so lousy, miserable, terrible and awful.
The day before, at 8pm when I prepare for the prayers, I heard someone is screaming outside my condominium. The screaming is coming from the life but I assume that its is a hysteria. One hour later, when my housemate come back, she told me what had happen. A robbery that scratch women hand and took out all the things from her. What pity girl and we feel so guilty for not lend a hand for her at that moment. I wanna cook rendang that time but since the kitchen is near the life, i ask my friend to accompany me.what a shame…..hahah

~LIFE BEGIN WITH POSITIVE MIND SET~

Lots of thing happens through out this week.
First of all, i was interviewed by the MQA's group about my college. Its was so shame for me as so many things that i spoke out without any planning. Things that make myself felt so embarrassed and just like wanna repeat that session again.

"i just got 7", "so bad", "its already pass", and so many.....

I do not know why but i just feel that i hold a big hopes and responsibility in my shoulder that day when i saw that 3 person(and they all are professors...enzyme, food,and...i forget one more but he is very nice..). instead one of them from my state.....

And for the last day in this week, i cannot hold my tears during the lab...haha...(what a weak person i am) but at least, i help the nature when i went to the toilet...(not because i use it but something wrong with the flush that make the water just flow without stop. Then, i just call somebody to repair it). Look! there is something that Allah plan for me.

Now, there are lots of stuff that i need to be done before May is coming. Hopefully 2013 will appear sooner as i wanna make something special for my parents, siblings and grandpa. So on to my "big big" family.

Ya Allah, give me the strength, give me YOUR bless and give me YOUR love and protection.
My life is for YOU and still for YOU for ever and ever...as YOU never leave me behind.
THANK YOU ALLAH...ALHAMDULILLAH...

MAHA SUCI ALLAH with the blessing that HE gave to me

Hallo, it has been a long time since i wrote here. today is my third lecture day and it was so fun. although for the last hour lecturei could not give a full concentration, i manage to understand few things. alhamdulillah..

IdOL???
haha, this always be my first enemy...
Taylors was the big challenge for me in the sense of heart n feeling
Friends teach me lots about my own self
Teacher give me lots of view regarding knowledge

BUT...

ISLAM give me everything
everything that i need to comfort myself
Quran is my good advisor and medicine for my heart
Muhammad S.A.W is the greatest man in the world
Thanks ALLAH for the path that YOU show me

ALHAMDULILLAH YA ALLAH

indirect ADVISE from DAD n Grandmom

i went to the Pasir Mas Hospital for my sister's medical check up today. actually i though my dad will bring her to Tanah Merah hospital so, i wanna follow as i wanted to do my teeth check up.

i were a little bit in doubt to follow them as my elder brother is going to his study place in the afternoon. it was a long time since i have not meet my grandmother, i decided to follow them. My little sister also joined us.

we arrived at the hospital at around 1030, it were our unpleasant day as the nurse who suppose to treat my dad nicely during the registration did not sincere doing her job. With the sour face that she had shown and the words that she bubbling a little bit make my tempered went up. although i did not shown to my dad, but i were really mad at that time as she should not treat my dad like that. haha, luckily my dad always smile (goat smile at that time!!). And for me, it is not good to make an enemy right? so, i were also smile to that nurse whenever she glance at us. it is so funny for at government staff to act like her..kua3.childish maybe..and for me maybe.

Then, we went to next building to do an x-ray. my dad told me, maybe she either had a personal or work problems. and i told my dad maybe it was a busy day for her.Dad told me back that how busy she is, she should do their responsibility as a workers.should not mix up between the personal and work matter.problems at home should not be bring to workplace.So, from here, i know the words that my dad wanna told me "Professional".

No wonder, i never saw dad scold us out of sudden.that is his secret. professional. Thanks for the indirect advise Dad.

Second, i got from my grandmom. life is meaningless if we did not perform our prayer. Although i never miss my prayer, but the words before it really touch me. She said to me, she always prayed for a long life from ALLAH, for the reason, she wanna perform the prayer and be a good muslimah. She advise me and sis to have a good education so that one day, we can gave the comfort to our dad and mom. "now,dad work hard to support his children, and one day you should take good care of your dad'," we does not have a lot of money is okay because it is enough for us to have good children....
"maybe grandmom will have no time to see you all success but you should comfort your dad by being good child''. not the age(how long our life) is measured as life is meaningless without prayer.

40 Days is enough

Forty days. what does i mean for me. it is already 40days (and maybe longer than that) i had my semester holiday. Overall,it is both interesting and wasting.

Let me discuss about the negative part first. My daily routine is not properly planned. i woke up in the morning a little bit late but still on time for the prayer. unfortunately, with no bath =P. Sometimes, i went back to my loving bed to continue my day dream~~Luckily, this few days i am able to controlled my self so that i would not going to my bed again after performing my prayer. Consequences, i slept at the afternoon for about two hours~and my father wondering if i am SICK???. To talk about my diet, it is the worse. i ate what ever i want at any time. Together with my siblings, we tried many delicacies until we felt bored.haha!!!. sis gain 4kg, and surprised,i gain nearly 6kg. All in all my days is full of entertainment


GOOD SIDE???
too many and to long to write it here. Everybody can be expect what was going on if i write this simple sentence. " Home sweet home"=)~ with all kinds of dancing, climb the tree, cooking, singing, joking, arguing,competing internet games, ghost stories, watching the tv programme together,laughing.............in short we do it TOGETHER and GATHER.....

Hopes this happiness will last forever with all family member stay in a pink of health....Amin.....

LOVE ALLAH more than others

I fell lost when the person left me.
person will never with us for all the time but ALLAh does.
He never left us alone...
ALHAMDULILLAH....